I attended a funeral on Monday. A gentleman in our church passed away unexpectedly the week before, and the church gathered to celebrate this gentleman’s life. This man had been attending the church for 37 years, was actively involved in the life of the church, and had made an impact on many people. He was very visible at every service. The individuals that participated in the funeral, the people that eulogized this gentleman, had very nice things to say.

Here are some of the ways this gentleman was described at the funeral: friendly, kind, dependable, made you feel like you were important, big heart, and loved Jesus.

I left the funeral a little conflicted inside. It wasn’t because the funeral was a sad event, as a matter of fact, it was quite happy. Sure there were tears from the family and others, but generally it was a celebration of this man’s life. Truly a celebration. I felt conflicted because I was thinking about my own life. What would be said about me at my funeral?

I’ve live the Christian life. I attend church (this same church for almost 40 years). I would say that I have a relationship with Jesus. I just don’t know if people would say the same nice things about me. Am I kind and friendly? Am I dependable? Do I make other’s feel important? The reason I’m struggling with this is because these attributes are the basic attributes all Christians should display, and I’m not sure I’m doing a very good job living them out. I guess I’ll have to continue wrestling with these thoughts.